Tuesday, January 20, 2004
*nurul
hafnt updated in wad? exactly ten days. ertbsx. din go to sch todae. need a break and since todae's a short dae. decided not to go. sighh. haf been hafing a crazie start of the year. totally no time for anithing else. my daes haf been like this : wake up at 530, bath change go to sch, 7 reach sch, start the dae off. crazie long time table. and den i end at 43O. 430!!!! torturous. and its only just the beginning. wonder wad it will be like in the middle of the year. mite as well tell us to stay over in sch. weehee. lol. and den reach home quite late ler. den wad i do? bathe, help my mommie wif some vacuuming. and den! i start revising and studying AGAIN! wow. not sae i din spend nearly 11 hrs in sch yeaaaa? and when i get home. the books face me again. i think the books sick of seeing my face larh arhhh! and den sometimes i forget to eat dinner again. bleargh. by the time i rmbr, it will be damn late, and i get leftovers which are pathetic. and den i will haf no appetite. so no dinner. =( sighhh. dunnoo wad's up wif my appetite larh arh. dowan to eat dowan to eat. pfffffft. and den when i get to sleep, wowee! its HEAVEN! and den i sleep. ZzZzZZz and den i wake up and VOILA! its a brand new dae. hahax. i'm rambling on and on. blearghh. i wish i haf time for myself. if i dun stop this routine, i'm scared i gonna break down. or rather i did already. i broke down on sat? sighh. and its only the beginning of the year. its just the FIRST month. i was practically going crazie. i felt as dou the world wanted to crumble on me. vannieeee. sorrie if i freaked out ya out. but you just hafta remind me dat i'm gifing up the things i love, the pple i love, and the stuff i love. sighh. i wish i can hold on to dem. but i'm tired of getting blasted by my dad and i just wanna make things rite this year. when o's finish, i'm still gonna be back to wad i used to be. do the things i love, pick up the pieces i left behind all for o's. blearghh. i wanna be happie once more. but i guess dat's a lot to ask for rite now. cuz all i can do now is just to concentrate on my o's. CONCENTRATION! hahax. i'm not gonna complain. its the o's. i just hafta gif everything up meanwhile. hee.